crazybusy

So, I am back to feeling crazybusy and not particularly effective and wondering what the point of all my crazybusy-ness is. I feel like I am working too hard - that the end result is not always justifying the things I have to do to get there.

Sometimes I think that is part of being a social worker - that for any number of reasons there is too much bureaucracy which weighs the job down. Sometimes I think that's part of working in a school system - 1) I am a guest and as such I always have to remember I am a guest (and noone likes a bad guest) and 2) schools are also full of bureaucracy (ditto above). Sometimes I think it's just that I am a workaholic and people pleaser and will go above and beyond trying to meet everyone's needs and make everyone happy (impossible scenario).

But I know that the results are important, even if it feels like it took too much effort to achieve the result. The results usually deal with someone's life (and don't we all think our lives are important?) and helping them to reach some level of what they or society consider success. So in reflecting I can say, yes, I am glad we achieved that. Even though I may say "Why did it have to be like forcing yarn through the smallest needle eye you can imagine?"