I just feel so overwhelmed and frustrated. I try to do my job but I am distracted by the overload of things that I just can't manage. I try to take care of all the people I am responsible for but I just keeping thinking about all the things undone. I have dropped so many eggs (metaphorically speaking, folks) at this point that I could have made a dozen soufflés.
I just keep trying to move forward - and I'm fine with the client sitting in front of me - I can still listen and empathize and care what happens to them and know that that comes through and reassures them. But in the meantime, I have forgotten to look up therapeutic activities I intended to use with another client, and I have forgotten to find the resources that I told 2 co-workers I would find for them, and my paperwork is so far behind that I might die before I catch up, and while one student/client fails to show up for whatever reason, some other student/client shows up in their place so I don't have time to track down and deal with the first one & whatever issues they're having.
And I may have made 4 doctors appointments for my mother which I will have to accompany her to & which will require many hours of my time and so I may feel like this is an accomplishment to have figured out how to make these happen, but there is no one who can take her to see my father, because no one provides that kind of service, and it's taken me many phone calls and false starts and bad information to get to that point, and that feels very deflating (doubly so because it has been 4 weeks since I could find time to go see him - and she hasn't been to see him for a couple months - I can only have nightmares about how much worse he has gotten). And I still have to make an appointment for a consultation about which Medicare D plan is best for her, but it can only happen on Wednesday morning because that's the only time they can do it (and then it's only every other week) so I have to arrange to take the morning off work (c'est la vie?) ... but I can't see paying $500 for a prescription which is what her current plan relegates her to until she pays for $4000 worth out of pocket... ("in the gap")... And the appointment has to happen soon because there is only a small time window during which you can change plans, and everyone acts as if you should be grateful for whatever little scrap they offer you...
And I have to teach a class to students who are overwhelmed in their naivete about life and graduate school, and I have to reassure them, when all I really want is for someone to reassure me!
It's been a long bad day... one of many lately.
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